It’s been quite a while since I’ve written a blog post. Overall things have been going pretty well. The vasectomy reversal surgery has been scheduled for March 2, and I’m not concerned about it. The person performing the reversal is a great vascular surgeon, and he assures me that he has a 98% success rate. Even if were unable to conceive after the reversal, IVF is covered by our insurance.

Work is been keeping me very busy. Toward the end of last year, I was integral and selling about $1.5 million worth of software and hardware. I’ve been told several times now by my manager that I’m the most valuable member of the team. His only complaint is that I don’t account for my time very well. In fact, there weeks that I don’t even log an hour. So I guess I’ve got to be better about that. At least with the projects that I helped to sell, I get to be home more for the next few weeks. I think I’m driving my wife up the wall, as she’s not used to having me around that much.

I’ve still been pretty depressed, maybe even more so than the last post that I had. I’ve been isolating a lot. In fact, I can’t remember the last time that I went out with friends. I have one friend that I had asked to go to lunch this weekend, but she ended up being busy. She’s legitimately busy so I take no offense to that. I did have another friend called me this morning. She’s somebody from back east. She was rather distraught and crying. I listen to her and tried to give her some comfort, but her situations are such that not much can change. I hate feeling helpless in a situation.

I don’t really know what else to say. Every day seems to be a carbon copy of the last.



Well, the vasectomy reversal is now officially scheduled for March 2nd. My wife is healthy with no potential complications from any existing medical abnormalities in her reproductive syste. Barring anything going wrong with pregnancy, I expect we’ll be parents at some point in the next 18 months. If for some reason we can’t conceive, IVF is covered by our insurance. 

Holy shit.. I’m going to be a dad. At 40.

I’ve not written in forever. Not much has gone on, but depending on how you look at it, huge things have happened. 

Seeing family for Christmas was uneventful. It was good to catch up with my parents and brothers. I got to meet one of my brother’s girlfriend, so that was cool. She seems nice. I truly hope them the best. 

My wife had all of her fertility testing done to make sure she was healthy enough to game a child and to diagnose any roadblocks on her end. She’s completely good to go in that respect. I’ve also met with the surgeon for me to see what the best course of action is. It turns out that vasectomy reversals after this many years are highly effective. If not, luckily, our health insurance covers invetro, so we have a fallback. The reversal is slightly more than we expected, but not prohibitively so. All in all, it’s less than half what IVF would cost. So, I’m waiting for the scheduler to call me this week. 

Depression has been really bad off late. I’ve also been drinking enough that the quantity alone is worth considering. I really need to cut back. At least when I travel for work I don’t drink. 

Work is and has been crazy busy. It should taper off by the end of January or February. 

My wife wants to go somewhere for her birthday. I’m wanting to wait until the surgery is scheduled, but she’s adamant about scheduling the time because she needs to put in her vacation request at work now for early March. I need to do the same. I guess I’ll pick a group of days and hope that the surgeon didn’t pick one of them, or if he does, it’s at the end of the group of days. 

So… Yeah… Having a kid. Minor life change…